How do I let go?

Why am I holding on so hard – when all around me say move on, let it go, life is too short.

I’ve been listening to the playlist I made for Gabriella, and in her song “who knew,” Pink sings “, And I won’t forget you, my friend, what happened ?. It’s been going round and round my head – well, that and James Blunt singing “I don’t know what to do because I will never be with you” it’s like having your heart repeatedly torn from your chest  – except it’s me that’s doing it. Am I mad to keep trying to work out what happened? I need to stop trying to see her and understand why the communication just stopped -I’m sure it wasn’t her; I bet it was her family that broke it all off. Suddenly I’m blocked on her phone, email, social media..nothing, it’s like she vanished -except I know where she is  – still, I don’t understand why she hasn’t tried to reach out, somehow…

I wondered why musicians wrote so many songs about being heartbroken and losing love. Now I think they do it hoping to forget.